I's not homeless no mo!

I have a home! Everything worked out I am now an official resident of Milwaukee, WI. Well i guess technically I live in Bay view which is like the Wicker Park of Milwaukee. I can't wait Hopefully i'll start working next week. i applied for a job at a little coffee shop right down the street from my place and I'm supposed to call them on monday for a schedule. Life is good.

Why can't I Hibernate!

Why don't people hibernate. It would really be grand to roll up in a little ball and not eat, drink piss or shit. Just dream for a good week or two. I need a break from my break.

I went on a date the other night. First time in a long time. I don't think I'm any good at courting. It always ends in meaningless sex or,"We're better friends than lovers." Who cares I'm done (for now)with chasing after pretty things and only getting tired.

I can't even write anymore everything that comes out seems stupid and contrived. What is wrong with me. Dude I'm loosing it. I feel so retarded these days.

I'm waiting desperately to see where I'm going to live next week. I'm supposed to move in somewhere on Monday and right now I have no clue where that is going to be. I thought everything was all worked out but now it's back in the air again. This sucks. I'm going to sleep swomeone wake me up in a month or so.

We will see if it's meant to be.

I've been running around in circles for a long time trying to get to the right place at the right time and I'm really tired going to sit down for a while and wait for things to come my way. I'm unpacking my bags. I'm gonna make big holes in the walls to make me think twice about leaving and patching them up.

what am I doing. I hope I don't jinx myself there are still details to worked out and sorted. Gotta finalize the deal. If it's meant to be it will be and that's what I'm hoping.

ain't life grand

I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay

If I keep this mantra going maybe one day it'll come true.
No but seriously. Life is grand. I have to overlook
the mounting debt, sometimes friends, and hours upon
hours of "down" time and enjoy the fact that I'm okay.
I know what I'm doing for the next several months and
eventually I'll even be making money. Isn't that all I ever
wanted?

Hey, I made it I'm a success. I make a living merely repeating words
that someone else wrote. I got it made. Don't I?
aghh there goes that stupid ambition again. Always
wanting more, actually hoping that I accomplish
something with my life that's meaningful or
important. Maybe one day. If not I at least
have to keep that goal in mind.
How can one make the most with the life they're
given unless they strive to go beyond the possibilities
that life enables them.

am I making any sense?

oh well.

Ain't life grand.

I need a Job

I have officially been unemployed for two weeks now and I'm loosing my mind. I feel like I'm rotting over here. I have two more weeks before I start working and I'm starting to doubt if I can make it. My liver isn't doing so well either. All I do is sleep and drink which sounds like a grand time under any other circumstance, but that's pretty much what I've been doing for the past year except I was getting paid for it and every now and then I had to go on stage. Too much time allows one to think to much. Contemplating the purpose of life or lack there of. Sorry I gotta go. I think I need to puke.





(that was a joke.)



aint it funny

People are strange (including me)

You never know who people are
until you need them to be
who you thought they were
and find out they're not

It seems I have many acquaintances
very few friends
and the few I have seem to come and go
without warning.

but every now and again there's a surprise
someone comes out of the woodwork just
when you need someone there.