i think i am, only time will tell

can one intellegently contemplate emotions?
does my heart rule my mind?
am i lacking inspiration for intellegent thought?

lately there has beem an abundance of emotional slop streaming from my
minds voice.

my philosophy has always been that there is no such thing as an evil person.
as realitively sane human beings we always reason with ourselves and ALWAYS make
decisions based on either what we think is right or what we feel justified in doing.
I have no problem with trying to sympathize or understand what makes a person
commit any crime, partake in any ritual to which i am not accustomed or pray to any god.

however, i seem to be over indulgent in happy go lucky, love everybody, open your heart,
let's go into the streets and sing peace songs mentality.
not that i'm not the sympathetic, caring, do whatever in the world you want to as long as it doesn't hurt me guy i have always been but really there are more interesting and intellectual subjects to ponder.

unfortunately nothing is crossing my mind right now except for love , sex, and how to reason with ones heart to truly be certain that it is making decisions with the approval of ones intellect.
i think i am , but only time will tell.

"You Can't Take it With You" -Kolenkov

"I feel magnificent! Life is chasing me around like a squirrel."

The Non-Conformist bible is not my doing!

a few of my friends clicked on the next entry (a link to a great blog) and thought that it was my writing.

i did not write nor do i even know the writer of the non-conformist bible.
i dig his ideas and thought that if you liked mine you'd like his.
i did however write the following comment in regards to one of his earlier postings "I have the greatest admiration and respect for...."

i have been reading your blog for the past week or so and find your postings extremely inspiring. I consider myself a non-conformist however after reading this particular posting several times it caused me to rethink some of the ideas stated. please forgive me for i am not a person of scholarly thought, but one of artistic contemplation. i am not, nor do i attempt to be a master of words i only amuse myself with intracate thought.

to begin with, i believe a true non-conformist does not simply free themselves from culture. instead, i would like to believe that we must recreate our culture.

american heritage dictionary defines culture as: The totality of socially transmitted behavior patterns, arts, beliefs, institutions, and all other products of human work and thought.
developing a strong culture is a positive thing. in the past, cultural traights have been determined by society as a whole and was merely a catagorization of common traights which defined how we lived and what we believed. it is true that most of these traights were defineded by those within proximity of each other and those which had been given religious and political power, but those who had power's influence were complemented by those who had no power except to influence thought: Artists and Scholars.

over time we who are considered non-conformists have discovered that religious and political leaders tend to fulfill their own agendas. rarely are they truly concerned for the common good. we can now see a larger picture. we realize that our ancestors and those around us have made huge mistakes the largest being that they are no longer developing a culture. many are blindly following popular thought as opposed to creating popular thought.

we live in a time where journalism, education and art are marketed instead of discovered and created. currently most of us no longer create our own culture instead we buy into one that has been created for us. we now live in a place and time where we can be and are influenced by resources from every direction. as a non-conformist i realize that defining who i am must come from critically examining all these resources and searching for others that are not as easily available to me. as a non conformist i create and discover my own truth and am defined by my own unique culture.

all to often i am bothered by those that deam themselves "non-conformists" simply because they have conformed to a sub-culture that is not mainstream. while i tend to share a lot of opions and ideologies with such people i still morn for their inabilities to discover themselves.
for this reason i have no distaste for these people or others culturally bound. how can i feel contempt or discust? if anything i should feel ashamed that we as artist have not been able to open their minds to a new way of thinking. that we the artist have not made a stronger impact on society as a whole. i feel that perhaps we've spent to much time lost in own cultural dilemmas and would rather criticize society than take on the responsibility of changing it. after all isn't it our job to make them look at, not only the world, but themselves and society in a different way.

the only reality is the one you create.

a dream becomes a goal only after you work towards it.

Feelin Good?

i'm lost again
my eyes are bleeding and i can't stay awake
somethings got to give

get going
i'm feeling good?

but do i really have a grip on what's going on?

do i even know what's going on?

where does reality lie outside of me?

The Non-Conformist's Bible

The Non-Conformist's Bible

Dare I Say.....

time presses foward and i ride the wave
on an ecstatic trip to somewhere far away but closer than home
fighting for a breath, struggling to stand and loving every bit of it

did i forget to send you a card?

i'm so sorry i was so busy living things to
write to you about
creating memories to share with you

i do miss you

though i have to say my mind has been quite consumed
with things other than missing anything

i've been, dare i say... loving
loving you, loving life
being alive
learning to

dare i say.... love?

Closed Due to Temporary Malfunctions

i have been experiencing technical difficulties both physically
and metaphorically.

unable to convey my current existence in thought
or process.

on the verge of new dreams
and expectations

currently searching to find new questions
and alternate solutions to equations
which may have been incorrectly solved

simplicity is sometimes greater than extravagance