Better

it does keep getting better

didn't I say that
can't worry about anyones problems but your own
if you've done the best you can
there is no problem

the sun is still shining
so at least one thing is going right

but think about it
all the energy it takes
to hold the planets in rotation
and we think we're special

there can be satisfaction in our mear existence
if we could only see it and acknowledge it
what we do while we're in this state of being
is just icing on the cake
an experience to live and grow from.

JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!

So I'm here in Utah and there's lot's of mormons and they really hate when you say J.C.'s name and I just don't get it. oh, well to each his own.

All's Well

no drama for the time being
which usually just means
the voices are quiet
and realized that my perception
is reality

there is no good or bad
until you interpret it as such
If we can learn from all experiences
there is no sorrow
only growth

forced writing

trying to maintain
keep it all together
wasting time
wasting away


empty hours fill themselves the void
clears ones mind of
irrelevant going ons

Mean People Suck!!

In college I used to have a friend Mark Larson
who always whore a hat that said, "Mean People Suck"

I always thought it was a little ridiculous
especially since Mark was one of those good guys
that everyone liked who was never given a reason to be mean to anyone.

Anthony on the other hand was a jaded, angry child who thought the world had it out for him. (and yes I am consciously referring to the person I was in the third person because I no longer know or want to know him)
He, although not purposefully, did a lot of things
impervious to the feelings of others.

Now looking back I really wonder if others considered him (me) a "Mean Person"

If so I am utterly sorry and hope to make up for my irresponsible youth with good deeds

Nonetheless, Mean People do suck it's totally unnecessary and nonproductive to simply create negative energy that has no purpose but to degrade others to create the illusion that you are better than you are.

It's unfortunate it takes us much to long to realize the simplicities of life.

ART

.

I'm starting to miss my paintings that were sold or loaned to people before leaving to Utah this is a horrible picture of a painting I especially liked that was loaned to my friend Meghan Schifilacqua.

And the beat goes on....

and the beat goes on
and the beat goes on

drum keeps pounding a rythm to the brain

la dee da dee dee la dee da dee dah
la dee da dee dee la dee da dee dah
(Sonny & Cher)

Sometimes the simplest ideas are the hardest to grasp
success is not a destination but a journey
that goes on and on and on


la dee da dee dee la dee da dee dah

back again

why can't I write
or do anything of any meaning lately

I feel so lost and I dont' know why

I'm all tripped out again
can't breath
don't know the air surrounding me
overwhelming me

what fascade must I wear to make the real me clear
a contradiction I know, but true none the less
being myself is much to confusing for the rest of the world
how can one prove their happiness

how can one prove their credibility

how can one prove anything

Lifes a game and why care who wins
just play