rebuttle to mumbo jumbo

Why do I do this?
my life could be so easy if I only allowed it to be.
why drown when i can swim or better yet float.
The waters not that deep but yet i refuse to stand and walk to shore.
Sure I love the struggle:
The clawing, climbing, clamouring to survive
but when is enough enough?

there are many futures i could keep fighting, keep struggling or i could give up. i could lose the fight and drown in my own misery or i could go to shore, buy a house and raise kids from Guatemala or Africa or Utah.

some child that has no future and show them that there might be
because I don't know if i can do it anymore

I've always wanted to change the world but some days i lose hope.

Not hope that there is a potential for change but hope that i possess some key that will unlock that potential. Somewhere along the way, i lost my way.

But I don't want to be lost anymore.

there will be many tears much sorrow more pain

but I pray for endless love? I have always had love and it has always ended. many times I've only discovered that love has entered my life upon its exit.

The only endless love is that for life and the choices i have made in it. Enough with the poetics.

i am a fool but i play the part well.