LOVE=abstract>Reality?

this is my only desire ...

"love" : strong affection for a person ot thing arising out of kinship
or personal ties. attraction based on sexual desire, admiration, or common interests.

to some the ultimate love would be a partner with whom you share more love than anyone else? or is it just a different kind of love? i really don't know. it seems the more i date the further i get from knowing what it is i'm supposed to be looking for.

if only i could create a list of likes and dislikes, but unfortunately i have no idea where to begin. my 'list' would simply be a series of names that didn't work. why, i don't know. most of them i still love very much, but it wasn't the right love.

or does it really matter?

is there really something more or am i searching for the realization of an abstract concept.